[A unsent letter written to the person I'm crushing on, unfortunately.]
I am quite sure you'll never know kung gaano nahilo Yung keyboard ko kakatype at kakasulat ng intro statement ko.
I know I'll never send this but why do I have to write this as if you'll read it someday? As if I'll ever have the chance to give this to you? Funny how things turned out because here I am writing.
But you know I just want to get this off of my chest. I really don't like the way I feel about you. Nakakainis kasi I know it wasn't supposed to be there. I kinda felt it was a random thing but with the help of my dear friend, I realized that maybe it was just your traits that I liked. The same reasons why I liked my other crushes.
Probably I was just on the phase where I constantly think of you. It really starts to get annoying, tbh. I feel it's so unfair na iniisip kita pero Hindi mo ako iniisip. Alam mo Yun? Bakit ako lang Yung naiinis Dito na paulit ulit kitang iniisip pero ako di mo iniisip? Da heck.
But besides my dead and crazy brain, I wanna spill the tea to you, purposely. Sana mapaso ka 🙂
Aaminin ko rin na may mga times na gusto ko makakita ng red flag tungkol sayo. I know it sounds so bad but I just want to stop this madness. Pero hindi eh, you just kept on waving different shades of green flags. Maybe I’m just into this point na you’re always in my mind, it’s getting crazy. I am now finding ways to “un-crush” you.
With the help of another friend, sabi niya “There’s no way to unlike someone you like.” (nakuha daw niya sa kdrama) and I think its true. But I don’t want to get stuck in the never ending cycle of you randomly popping into my head. It's just so unfair.
I just hope this will pass soon. You have been a great distraction to me. It’s really not helpful. Sana kapag nakinig ako ng mga OPM songs hindi na ikaw yung iniisip ko. Sana kapag masaya ako, hindi ko na iisipin kung masaya ka rin ba.
Please, sana ayaw ko na sayo.
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